Make it a great day – Help me see
What is being triggered mean? You may have heard that funny little girl on youtube talk about being triggered. My 10 year old son has taken to using that word because of those videos. According to urban dictionary and the new popular use of this word in memes and on social media it means to become angry after seeing something you hate or to feel rage because of something that happened.
But, this is an actual word my therapist used to use and it originated from a psychology term “trauma trigger”. It was originally associated with post traumatic stress syndrome but has broadened to include those who have experience trauma of many sorts, not just those that have actual flashbacks to those moments.
I had a period today where I got a lot more intimate with a triggering event for me. For me, triggered has come to mean that an event or usually something someone says causes me to project myself back on a much more traumatic event or feeling from my childhood. Today, I received an email that for some reason put me on the defensive and I took the tone of the email to be quite dismissive. That almost immediately sent me into a mental tailspin of my current go to cover up anger item. She swirled through my head like wild fire, but instead of focusing on her as I have been doing lately, I moved deeper to what may or may not be the root emotion. The abandonment by my father and the subsequent lies he spread about me. I do believe he tried to love me in his own way, but just wasn’t equipped to and ultimately protected himself from his own failures and insecurities.
I view this as a movement in the right direction. I also had a couple other things happen today that may indicate that movement is happening and the possibility of growth and change is swirling around me.
XXI The World
King of Wands
Your energy is starting to balance. Your past influences are showing themselves as lessons in the current moment. A new cycle begins. Doors open and opportunities present themselves. You have the tools and are well prepared for success. It is time to own your gift and creativity. Take action and be decisive.
That pretty much sums it up. Amazing how quickly things can start to move when you open yourself to change and allow the universe in.